I can't quite find the words to say right now. Why does that always happen at the exact moment you're supposed to begin talking? I think it must be some kind of conspiracy, carried out by the little guy who lives in the refrigerator with no other purpose in life than turning that little light on and off. You have to admit, it makes you wonder.
In all seriousness,i have a monkey on my back yes a monkey. I call him Reality and he is a mean little bugger. I'm trying to deal with him, day by day, but sometimes I can run ahead of myself. Things have a way of falling apart when you have your back turned. There is always another problem, another wound to heal, no matter who you are. I am just trying to learn how to deal with those things in a way that will keep me healthy and sane. That is something much easier said than done. But isn't that always the case?
I am the protector. The one person who you can always rely on, who will always have a shoulder and a kind word to make you smile. I save those around them from the shadows in their minds. It is something that I take great joy in doing, but it also has its own darker side. By helping other people with their problems I often have a valid excuse for denying my own. I can't feel guilty about not doing this or that to benefit myself when I'm helping someone that I love. But, again, I'm working on that. I know that I will be able to do nothing but hurt those I love in the future if I don't begin taking care of myself now. Because, as many times as I've denied it, I am a little bit important to the world, or at least those who know me. Now if I could just kick this pesky inferiority complex.
I am the dreamer. I have the imagination of a child and I am damn proud of it. And I find nothing more attractive in a guy than his ability to tell me stories. I love to write. Mostly short stories or novels, but I do throw out the occassional poem. It is my emotional outlet and my passion. I love to create worlds, to fill them up with characters that are so real that you can fall into their lives. Gah... It is so amazing.
And so I must draw this little thing to a close. If you have read all of this you are my hero. Some people think that you sit down and write all this stuff for the hell of it. Maybe I do, but it's nice to been seen and heard every once in a while. So here are big *Hugs* for you.
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